I always felt different from the other kids.
ALWAYS! I blocked out the molestation I experienced from neighbor girls in my early youth, but the double rape I experienced as a runaway at age 17 shaped me for years to come. I was raped two times in a week; first, violently by an escaped inmate while I was high on PCP at an outdoor party. An older girlfriend who was hiding me from the cops was also violently raped by the same guy. They took her away in an ambulance & I never saw her again. Seeking safety anywhere I could find it as a runaway, I stayed with my best friend’s boyfriend & his family. I was in shock from the first rape & unable to experience touch of any kind. The boyfriend decided all I needed was to be made love to. Softly, gently. I woke up tied to a bed while he ever so gently raped me. When he freed me… I hit the ground running and didn’t stop until I was 42.
My absolute need to control men and women led me first into stripping, then prostitution, & ultimately I found my niche as a dominatrix. I would add heavy-metal rock star to my resume before hitting bottom. I always thought I enjoyed my sex-&-drugs-&-rock-n-roll lifestyle while I was living it. But, then, my reality had been blurred by drugs since I was 12. Using drugs gave me the ability to simply forget everything bad that ever happened & gave me grandiose thinking, like I was untouchable. I liked the control people gave me as a dom. And I was very good at it.
I had 2 female and 3 male lifestyle slaves for over 15 years. Constantly telling them what to do and when to do it eventually sucked the life right out of me. Secretly I yearned to give up the control to someone else, for someone else to be in charge. But I found no one I could trust enough, no one who wouldn’t abuse the power.
Finally, the 24 years of meth abuse began to fray the edges of my mind. At 40 years old I checked into rehab. That’s where I learned for the first time that I was an addict and that I would die that way. I would spend the next two years in & out of rehabs, relapsing ever deeper into drugged depressions. I learned about the 12 steps but couldn’t get past step three. The fourth step, the inventory of my life, was so completely devastating to me, I welcomed the escape drugs gave back to me. Sobriety brought me diagnoses of Bi-Polar Disorder, PTSD and Mania. I never felt so alone. Most of my internal agony came from misplaced confidence. As hard as I tried, I could not fully trust in God to help this addict recover. I only trusted myself.
Then, Sept 20, 2008, I went to a Godchicks Conference. I learned that I did not have to die an addict. I could have a fresh start! I gave my life to Jesus and I have never done drugs again!
I left the sex industry and started regularly attending Church. As nice as the Christian people were to me, I didn’t feel like they understood. That’s when my pastor introduced me to Harmony and Treasures. Finally, there was someone who could relate. Someone I could trust. Someone with a plan to help me not just survive my past, but overcome it, and finally to use my story as a liberator to set others free.
At Treasures, I was met right where I was and showered with unceasing, unconditional love and encouragement. I was invited to join the community of Treasures women where I met many girls with stories similar to my own. I began my healing journey as an over-comer and was privately mentored for several years. I also attended a therapist-led support group for sex industry workers where I learned about healthy boundaries. Finally I found the courage to leave the abusive relationship I was in.
After several years of healing and by the grace of God, I am now in the next phase of my journey, I am a liberator. As a liberator, I now mentor other girls and I am one of the hosts of the therapist-led support group.
I cannot find the words to convey my gratitude toward Harmony, the entire Treasures team and everyone who supports this ministry. With the love and support I have received, I have not just survived 22 years of sex work but I have overcome my past, and I’m using my story to set others free.
My name is Dee and I am a Treasure!
I AM a child of God
Daughter of the King!!!
“In Treasures, I have found people who can relate to my past & help me overcome!”
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